Menjaga Hati

This is my much ‘tenang’ version (which is today): I just love this song: not so much because of the lyrics but the title really suit today’s entry. It’s no secret that I’m hopeless in the communication department. I found it’s hard to say what’s inside my head and heart when it comes to personal matters -those things besides work. If it is professional, I don’t have any problem at all. So most of the time, perhaps all the time, I’ll just keep quiet whenever I was hurt by others words, action etc. Call me weak, low self esteem what-ever, but I would try really hard to avoid any kind of conflict. Perhaps I was too afraid to think of what the consequences would be if I just speak out. Perhaps I am more into making assumptions..

This is my actual-real time version (yesterday): When will I ever learn that what I think or feel is not IMPORTANT. Perhaps when I finally came to this realization, I would be able to protect my feeling from being crushed up what so ever. I have been in this situation over and over and it’s not anyone’s fault- I’m the one to blame because my failure to guard my feelings. So, I have to MENJAGA HATI- my own to that is.