Quantum of Solace

August 7, 2010, 5-something a.m. ~ Sangat sakit, dah tak boleh stay still. Pusing ke kanan kiri semua serba tak kena. The nurse came to check. Alhamdulillah dah 4 cm dilated. Yang kelakar kakak nurse yang check tu pun sama excited. Dari muka mengantuk, terus dia segar! Dalam pada gembira with the dilatation, I found the pain was unbearable. I had been 'in the process' for so long and hadn't eaten anything for almost a day, thus I was too weak . (Or so I guess). Once again I broke my birth plan by requesting for epidural. The nurse prepared me for labour. I was given e nema (again) and she took off the drip as I wanted to get up on and use the bathroom. I had enough of catheter and I need to refresh myself before labour. 6 a.m.~ I was brought to the labour room. Finally! The anaesthetic was already in there to give me epidural. It was like a magic. Within a few minutes the pain was gone. MH entered the room after the procedure was completed. He looked haggard due to la

August 6, 2010, 9.00 p.m ~ By this time everybody were REALLY anxious. I was still stuck at 2 cm dilatation. And by everybody I meant the doctor and nurses, MH, my Mom, my parents-in-law, my in-laws, myself - practically everybody who knows about the situation whether they were physically present at the hospital or just following the progress on the phone. During this time, all I want was contraction, never mind the pain!! A new 'friend' on my right bed was admitted and oh my God wasn't she a loud one! Moaning and groaning about the pain even as the nurse put in the Enema and broke the water bag! Through the curtain I could hear that a bunch of family members were trying to calm her down. About half an hour later, the moaning and groaning stopped. I asked MH about it and he told me that she was already being sent to the Labour Room. Cepatnya! Just now she was just like me at 2 cm and now? Felt like trading place with her.... I started to ignore my hand phone. I could not

August 6, 2010, 1.00 pm ~ I was in the Recovery Room. There were two other patients inside, so I got the middle bed. Not my preferred location though. As soon as I started to make myself comfortable in there, a nurse came in to gave Enema . A few moment later another nurse came to put in the drip to ensure the continuity of the contraction. Then, the previous nurse came in to check on the dilation and subsequently she broke the water bag. Ya Tuhan!! How embarassing to be poked here and there, especially down there! Sakit memang sakit, tapi malu lebih-lebih lagi!! Syukur juga semua staff di sini wanita, sekurang-kurangnya kurang sikit rasa malu tu.. A few hours had passed. Member katil sebelah yang dok mengerang sakit dari tadi dah masuk labour room. Tinggal lagi seorang on my left. Myself? Tak rasa apa-apa sangat lagi, cuma sakit macam period pain, still bearable. Macam tu ke sakit contraction? When the nurse came in to check on me, she was surprised because the contraction was st

August 4, 2010 ~ We arrived at the hospital at 8.45 p.m. Nampaknya tak s empat nak dinner dahulu. I was being sent to the Recovery Room, a 3-bedded 't ransit' room for expecting patients before heading to the labour room. Luckily the room was empty when I checked-in. Kalau tak suspense juga dengar bermacam-macam suara orang sakit contraction! An hour after the p rocedure, I was sent to the ward. Would be spending the night there, until the induce came into effect, then only I would be brought back to the Recovery Room. All my life, this was the first time that I was being admitted to a hospital. The Doctor told me not to move around, so t erlantarlah di atas katil sambil makan nasi goreng daging bersama MH yang ditapau. Sambil tu layan cerita Mami Jarum di Astro. Mode masih relak s, tapi berdebar-debar juga nak tunggu sakit. Macam pelik juga, tunggu nak sakit hehehe... August 5, 2010 ~ Around 3 a.m. - Tidur tak lena. Asyik terjaga almost every hour. Maybe because of the di

~Ini adalah entry yang terkebelakang, due to my laziness to post it earlier... =D ~ Preparing to welcome the lil' one to the family seems to be endless! Since it is our first time experience, it was quite difficult to di s ti ngu ish between the must-have items with the things that are ' not-so-needed, but convenient to have' especially as we were browsing through the appealing baby stores and various mommy-to-be blogs where they raved about so many stuff and what-not. Even I had prepare a list of things t o get for the baby, there's always addition al stuff to be added later on because som e mo mmies said it is very useful, good for the baby, bla bla bla. Up to a point I had to refrain m yself from reading the product reviews, forum discussion etc sebab takut terpengaruh! After a few 'upd ated lists' later and 'ziarah' ke MotherCa re dan kedai-kedai yang sewaktu dengannya, I finally satisfied that my prepa ration for the baby was almost complete.

August 5, 2010 ~ MH and I were still undecided about the induction thing. The truth was, MH was 80 percent sure to go for it. It was only me. I was still contemplating about the whole thing. And time was running short. My parents in-law came to our house today, so I was pretty busy at the kitchen and managed to take my mind off the whole thing for a while. But came 4 p.m., MH told me, "Kita pergi hospital malam ni ya". I was like "Betul ke ni? I'm not ready yet!!!". I took a long nice hot shower yang entah ke berapa kali untuk hari tu, solat taubat, sunat istikharah, hajat dan tak putus-putus berdoa . Talked to my Mom, cuba-cuba untuk menenangkan diri... finally I made up my mind to go for it - that night. Terus siapkan barang-barang untuk ke hospital. Most of the stuff, especially for the baby dah siap masuk emergency bag. Just a few of my stuff - books, toilettris, lipstick (still vain!) that need to be put inside the bag. After we finished packing, it was

Went for my 39-weeks antenatal check up today. Got not-so-good news. My O&G strongly advised me to go for an induction before my estimated date of delivery (EDD) which is on August 10. This was based on the overwhelming growth of my baby, whilst I still did not show any sign of delivery yet. We were being told that the baby might 'buang air' in the womb and this is a serious condition that might lead to Cesarean section. This was really a shocking news for me. I never expect that the option of induction, let alone C-section would came into picture especially at this stage. I had mentally prepare myself for a natural birth, doing a lot of reading on childbirth and never came across this condition. More over, the previous check-ups results were very encouraging, my baby and I were in good condition. This is a very important decision to make-to go for an induce or not. Deep in my heart I'm against it. But what if the doctor is right. I would jeopardize my baby then. This

This was my experience during my 37 weeks… As THE day is approaching, I was really overwhelmed with the whole childbirth thing. Can I cope with the pain? Would it be a long process? How about complications? The fact that I’ve been feed with various nerve wracking childbirth stories doesn’t really help either. I believe that one have to be mentally prepared to deal with the whole process. Therefore, I had always wanted to attend antenatal class since my early pregnancy. But the timing was always wrong-it was either MH or I were not available during the time (which is almost every weekend in MH’s case!) or there was no class being conducted at all on our preferred date. Before we knew it, I was already in my 37-weeks and I had given up hope. Therefore, the only childbirth story that I kept rewinding in my mind right now is my Mom’s-especially her experience when she delivered me. You see, I was a breech baby. I was so huge at birth (weighed at 3.8 kg to be exact) as comp