Showing posts from May, 2008

I used to be..but I'm not anymore

I borrowed this entry's title from one of Judy Blume's book "Here's to You, Rachel". I read the book when I was in secondary school, after all this years, I wonder how I can still remember this one line from the book. Yeah, our minds are great. Sometimes I even think it is capable to out-done us. Just like today..of all the things, what came into my mind today was something that had happened exactly two years ago. And as I'm writing this entry, it is actually almost at the exact time... I used to be optimistic, but I'm not anymore after 29 May 2006. Yes, I’ve moved on, I’ve met new people, slowly but surely I've been coping quite well with life after that. But now it seems that there's a little box deep inside my mind that still been keeping this.. I just don't really realize that it is still there after all this time. Perhaps this is because there was something that I meant to say that time, but I didn't..if only I could pour my heart out …

Balik Kampung

Antara nikmat dunia Malaysia yang tak pernah aku rasai is nikmat balik kampung especially during Hari Raya.

Even if my Mom and Dad hailed from the South, my grandparents (from both sides pulak tu) had resided in Kuala Lumpur later on in their lives, which resulted in me/us being kampung-less.

So the closest thing to kemeriahan Hari Raya that I could get is by watching all those video clip Raya that typically contain images of children bermain bunga api di laman rumah yang sangat meriah dengan pelita dan lampu kelap-kelip, anak dara tengah menggantung langsir, anak bujang kacau dodol, mak dan nenek memasak kat pangkin. Watching all this always put me in self pity “Meriahnya Raya diaorang…”

So lagu Sudirman “Balik Kampung” tu sangatlah tak relevannya with my Raya. Sedihya…sob..sob..sob. Perhaps (if I ever) get married, I’ll get to experience that too…hehehe.

But luckily I still got the opportunity to merasai kehidupan di kampung di umur2 begini even if not during Raya pun. Antaranya masa pe…

What's Your Name Hidden Meaning?

I was feeling very bored and too lazy even to pick up a pen. So I ended up doing lots of quizzes, even yang mengarut tu, but this one is rather interesting, so try out to figure out what's yours here:

What Nadeema MeansYou are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along wi…

Blessing in Disguise

I had been in a very terrible state of mind (body and soul too, perhaps?) for the past few weeks – I’d been very temperamental, and when I didn’t mumble under my breath you’d found me bending the ears of those around me- groaning and moaning about what else – work related stuff.

I guess everybody has something to say about their work. Overwork, not enough work (nak complain juga ke?), problems with bosses, colleagues, clients, problems getting to work (traffic jam, inefficient public transportations service), problems getting off from work (traffic jams-again!) and the list will go down until the very tiny-miny issues.

But believe it or not, there are people out there whose their ultimate work problem is in finding what is the problem with their work. Dear readers, please don’t try to figure out what that means, otherwise you’d be caught with confusion just like me (and the rest of the gang)! But in short it means - these people don't have any serious problem at all with their work,…

The Prayer

"I pray to Allah to grant the wishes of those people yang ada perasaan irihati, jealous what so ever, so that they'll stop having such negative feelings and stop the negative vibes from spreading as well. AMIN!"