Quantum of Solace

Pencemaran toksik – situasi yang boleh berlaku dalam keadaan nyata atau tidak nyata.  Keadaan nyata seperti insiden melibatkan pencemaran di Sungai Kim-kim. Tong-tong bahan berisi sisa toksik dilaporkan ditemui di kawasan berhampiran. Keadaan tak nyata seperti murid-murid sekolah di sekitar Pasir Gudang yang mengalami kesukaran bernafas. Insiden berulang beberapa kali tetapi punca sebenar masih tidak ketahuan.  Tapi, persekitaran toksik  tak kurang juga bahayanya. Boleh terjadi  di mana-mana, bukan sekadar dalam radius Pasir Gudang, Sungai Kim-kim dan yang sewaktu dengannya.  Berlaku tanpa kelihatan dek mata. Terjadi  secara tak nyata. Tetapi kesannya tak kurang bahaya. Bahana kepada jiwa, bisa melumpuhkan raga. 

Entry 1/2016 It's been a while since I last posted in this blog. In fact, it has been 10 months! Surprisingly, I never consider of shutting or abandon this blog. Once in a while, I would logged in and wrote something, but for some reasons, it always ended up in the draft box. Thus far, I have 65 writings that never made to the 'publish' section. That bad, huh?  However, one of my resolutions for this year is to read more and to write more .  I already started my ' One Book A Month' - a specific goal in order to keep me on track with my reading.  But haven't started anything similar on the writing part yet. I guess I am yet to find my motivation to write - other than for work and educational purpose. And for someone who loves writing, to be in the state of not writing other tha n for the necessary purpose is quite devastating . My writing sk ills a re getting rusty! So, a couple of weeks ago, I got on the first move - giving my blog a freshe...

Salam Ramadhan semua! Diam tak diam hari ini masuklah hari ke-16 kita berpuasa. Alhamdulillah.Memang entri ini tertinggal keretapi, tapi masih juga saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Berpuasa dan Selamat Meningkatkan Ibadah di bulan Ramadhan ini. Bercakap tentang berpuasa ini, memanglah semua pun tahu yang bulan ini kita dilarang daripada makan/minum dan melakukan perkara yang membatalkan puasa dari terbit matahari sehinggalah terbenam matahari pada hari tersebut. Begitu juga dengan ibadah eksklusif bulan Ramadhan seperti membayar zakat fitrah, menunaikan solat sunat terawikh dan sebagainya. Itu boleh dikirakan satu kelaziman untuk dilaksanakan dalam bulan ini. Tetapi t ahun ini, mungkin disebabkan faktor peningkatan usia (sob! sob!) ,  saya ada perspektif tambahan tentang ibadah berpuasa yang ingin dikongsikan di sini. Jika kita perasan, semasa bulan Ramadhan ni, kebanyakan daripada kita akan jadi e xtra cautious dengan setiap pertuturan, sikap dan tindakan kita. Contohn...

Semenjak dua menjak ini seolah-olahnya temanya HILANG. Bermula dengan kehilangan pesawat MH370 pada 8 Mac 2014 yang sehingga kini sedang dijejaki, disusuli pula dengan kes-kes kehilangan yang berlaku dalam lingkup peribadi. Menjengah bulan April, saya 'kehilangan' sesuatu yang telah diusahakan bersama selama dua tahun. Tetapi k ehilangan  yang ini semestinya untuk sesuatu yang lebih baik, untuk semua pihak.  Walau pun ianya bukanlah sesuatu yang di luar jangkaan, malahan saya antara yang terawal mengetahui mengenai berita tersebut dan mengetuai proses penyerahan itu, namun sedikit-sebanyak emosi itu tergugat jua. Air mata ini gugur bukan kerana kesedihan, tetapi perasaan yang terusik. Mungkin kerana saya bukan sahaja akan kehilangan sesuatu yang telah menjadi my drive and motivation , malahan akan kehilangan sekumpulan rakan yang telah sama-sama mengharungi susah-payah, suka-duka, ketakutan, kegembiraan, kejayaan, kegagalan, kecemasan dan segala-gala yang berkait deng...

*Disclaimer - this entry is not about the UPSR result!   I'm the kind of person that finds it's easier to express my thoughts and feelings through writing rather than talking it out-aloud. Whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed with my life and surrounding, I prefer to write it down because it is t herapeutic. It's actually easier for me to talk to a large crowd like during meetings or presentations when it come to work or other issue, rather than talking to one person, about my true feelings.   Yes, I'm a contradicting person.   During my schooldays  (a.k.a non-digital days hahaha ) I kept a personal journal where I jot down about my hopes, anger, frustrations and even insecurities, that I bet most people, even those who were close to me, didn't know about.   So when it comes to the digital era, blogging is an easier way for me to write and I even took the bold step to share about my private thoughts with other people. Even peopl...

Malaysia ini memanglah bukan negara 4-musim, sebab musim kita lagi banyak daripada 4. Tak percaya? Kita ada m usim durian, musim orang kahwin, musim hujan, musim banjir, musim cuti sekolah (a.k.a. musim budak-budak berkhatan), musim tak ada air, musim tanah runtuh dan banyaaak lagi. Yang paling meriah dan ditunggu-tunggu tentulah musim Raya.   Ops, entri ini bukanlah nak cerita tentang persiapan Hari Raya, melampau weh, kalau story sekarang. Puasa pun belum. Ini nak cerita tentang satu lagi Raya yang 4-5 tahun sekali dialami oleh semua di tanah tumpah yang tercinta - tak kira agama, bangsa, keturunan dan kaum yakni Pilihan RAYA.   Akhirnya teka-teki sekian lama bila Pilihan Raya terjawab awal bulan ini dan makanya perang bendera, poster dan kempen pun bermula. Hari ini pula penamaan calon. Sana-sini dah meriah dengan pelbagai warna, lambang dan gelagat penyokong-penyokong parti.   Bila tiba musim Raya, seperti musim-musim lainnya, maka a...

I find it disheartening following the news lately. One was about a local celebrity who manage to complete his 'quota' and the other one was about a certain club who want to teach the wives on how to 'keep' their husbands. Both news came at about the same time. Coincidence? To tell the truth, I am disgusted of both 'breaking' stories. I don't understand how could such trashy stories made into the headlines. Not only that, it also got the 'follow-up' news for days and unmistakably had became the hot conversation topics for many days. And please tell me what good do we get from it? Nothing. Really. Except that the celebrity had officially reigned 'HERO' status (at least from most of his male counterpart) and now we know that pre-marriage course should be held at brothels rather that lecture halls! So now we don't need marriage councellors anymore and perhaps we s hould engage sex workers (not the one from Lorong Haji Taib, but first cla...

They can forget what they have told you, But you can never forget how they make you feel....

I have a few confessions to make. First, I would always look forward for my Sunday newspaper. I got cheap thrills by browsing from page to page of my favorite Star Mag; drowning myself into the well written articles about people, culture and places. Whilst I don't usually agree with most of the columnists namely Dzof Azmi and Dzireena, I really look forward for the weekly features which usually about interesting story of the ordinary people. But last Sunday my favorite pick had to be this article “Praise, Don’t Disgrace” by Nithya Sidhhu. At first I was just reading it for the sake of reading as she had never been my favorite writer. She is an educationist, so her piece would always evolve around school-teacher-student-school administration and stuff like that. However, this time as I got down to the very last word in her piece, I found that I could relate to the thing that she wrote. It was about name calling. She brilliantly describes the situation as this, "Name calling is...

I’m easily irritated and annoyed. Period. So I (we) had quite a tiring day yesterday. Got up at 4.30 a.m. in order to be at the Kuantan airport in time to catch the 6.50 a.m. flight. Then straight from KLIA we went for a dialogue session at the UN Building which lasted for about 3 hours. So I went to the office haggard and decided to forgo lunch for a siesta. I woke up half and hour later, feeling a bit refresh and ready to kick back. But my high-spirit did not last for long as a few hours later this particular person came to my desk and asked me to pass this message to a colleague of mine - “Ask *** to make reservation at KLCC for ***, tapi bukan yang twin tower tu ya, the one near the taman ,” I was like OMG- a total annoyance! I’m not quite sure whether I should feel this way, as the message was meant for another person, but the way she said those words in bold – even though not directly meant to me – very annnoying and snobbish. It insulted my (our) intelligence. And I hate it when...

I don’t really know what’s happening to me, but I haven’t been quite myself lately. Everything doesn’t feel right. And I hate being in this situation. And it’s not that time of the month… I don’t know how to describe about what I’m feeling right now and I don’t really quite sure what’s causing it. I’m just emotionally not here nor there. I’m neither happy nor sad. I’m not tensed nor too relax. I don’t want to be alone but I don’t want to be surrounded with people. I just feel empty. Aimless. I feel like a robot, carrying my duty and responsibility as a worker, daughter, whatsoever without having any feeling and putting so much thinking into it at all. I hate my own guts. I guess I got a word to describe it - Floating – I guess that’s the word. I’m floating, my mind is floating.