Quantum of Solace

Today is a birthday of a good friend of mine. This person has such a strong and pure personality that makes you either like him or loathe him. As in my case, I fall on the former category. He will always be himself no matter what and that makes him so indispensable especially amongst friends. H is presence is felt; and his absence is definitely missed. So for his birthday, I pray that he will have enough of everything in this world. Nobody really needs more that what’s enough.. Here is an excerpt from “I Wish You Enough” by Bob Perks specially dedicated to him… “ I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough" Happy 29th Birthday!!!!

I finally made it official yesterday-the break-up . That was a long overdue matter that I was supposed to resolve quite sometimes ago, but I didn’t and I blamed it all to my personality- I’m stubborn but yet sensitive towards other people feelings. These conflicting traits that I have in me have made me a rather confused, indecisive person when it comes to personal matters. However, it is ironic though to read my horoscope these two consecutive days prior to the break-up- Aquarius, 25 March – Sooner or later you will have to explain to others about 1 or 2 rather complicated situations. Ideally you’ll do this around the week’s closed, when both Mercury & the Venus meet your ruler Uranus, boosting both your ability to say what needs to be said. Aquarius, 26 March -Too often you have had to cope with those who insist on theirs interests coming first. Consequently, you do all you can to be fair, sometimes too much so. But circumstances have turned the tables, and you must become one of...

I consider myself as a relatively brave person. I’m not afraid of snake, cockroach and at home I’m the one who do all the ‘dirty and cruel stuff’ - mengemas tempat-tempat yang susceptible to have those scary little creatures with expertise in membunuh lipas, lipan dan haiwan yang sewaktu dengannya. I’m also not afraid of flying (I happened to know someone who is so macho and garang outside, tapi…..hehehe ) and not so afraid of height –(to those who still remember the way I did my repelling during BTN and Bomba, FYI, I wasn’t really afraid, berhati-hati jer! =)) Occasionally I would challenge myself by watching horror movie, just to know whether it can scare me. BTW, I’ve concluded that none of the omputih horror movies (so far) could scare me. In fact, it was kinda funny to see how hard they tried to make the scene frightening. Why didn’t the filmmaker just apply the concept of “less is more” in such movies as well? Didn’t they know that scary/ghost movies don’t need the red-eyed-...

I was at this workshop for officials involved in gender issues. Then we came to this session where we had to state our stand whether discrimination exists in the cases given. The basic options would be whether we agree or not with the subject matter and provide the rationale for it. I’m okay with people having different views than mine, in fact I find it interesting to debate on our stands, but this particular opinion really shook the daylight out of me -- “I disagree. Because it is a masculine job, and if the woman has a responsible husband and can provide her with a beautiful life, why should the woman complains?” I just couldn’t believe what I just heard!! If I were the moderator, I would have shrieked and cast this person aside and do some serious brainwashing! However, the moderator (despite the surprised look on her face upon hearing this) politely dismissed her point and continued with the session. But I really have a problem with her opinion. And I tell you why…. 1. We were d...

I’m one of those people who never have trouble sleeping. Once I hit the pillow, I could almost immediately drift into dreamland. I can sleep literally anywhere – and this was proven when I went for my army training course where there was this night when we had to stay in the jungle for ambush. Armed with the peluru kapur -loaded M16, we had to stay still in this meniarap position for a couple of hours until the ‘enemy’ appears. We were not allowed to make any noise and move. Time seemed to move slower when you had nothing to do!! “ Kalau macam nie punya boring + gelap, bukan setakat mati kutu, gajah pun boleh mati!! ” Just after a few minutes of pandang keliling and kekecewaan because I didn’t see anything ‘paranormal’ – I put my head on the hard-cold metal (M16- mind you!) and dozed off almost immediately! It was somewhat amazing that I could sleep so soundly on the hard-swamped ground with endless possibilities of those slimy creatures would crawl up to my body! If I’m really slee...

This entry is dedicated to my beloved brother -- Ijal Dear Ijal, Happy 25th Birthday……! Looking at the picture of you while you’re a baby, tak sangka masa berlalu sangatcepat !! Here what your horoscope says about you………. ~ You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet (you’re there already bro!!) ~ You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily (sangat betul!!) ~ Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail (betul lagi!) ~ You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details ( that’s why you’re so much mature that your ol’ sis!) ~ Your strength: Your supreme genius (sejak baby lagi!!) ~ Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity (is it?) ~ No matter what, you’re still my little bro!!~ Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki dan dilimpahi keberkatan!!