Quantum of Solace

I have to admit that this was not the first time I burst out at work – but this was definitely the worst. It was initially a discussion, but somehow along the way we or myself for that matter had been pushing or pressuring the “Coordinators” so hard that one of the “Coordinators” got upset and walked away. Perhaps that was due to the way I explaining things. I felt so strongly about the matter and maybe along the way I had been terlalu tegas that some people just couldn’t stand it. But I had been telling the same thing over and over again for over a month. So I guess I got the right to be upset too. To cut the long story short, how would you build a house if the foundation is not there yet? Perhaps for some people, this incident indicated that I’m garang, ego, control freak, bossy, panicky what ever. While I only admit of being an egoist and a control freak, the real truth why I felt so strongly on my views are as follows: 1. I just want to make things easy for everybody. You see, eac

Finally I bought my first SK-II set - it was only from the Discovery range, but I love the size-suitable for travelling. I got it quite sometimes ago in SOGO, Taiwan. Hope it's going to work just as it promised! Actually I don't really want to blog about it, But since I hadn't update my blog for sooo long, so I guess this is better than nothing!

Update 27th to 28th November - Ipoh, Perak Got the directive to go there while I'm in Perlis, 5 hours before my flight back to KL. --------------------------------------------------------------------- My schedule for November 4th to 19th November - Workshop in Taiwan 20th to 21st November - Office 23rd to 24th November - Alor Setar, Kedah 25th to 27th November - Perlis 29th to 30th November - There is a b ig fat chance that I have to go to Penang I hardly have time for myself, so how am I going to have a relationship then?

If that is one word to describe us- the participants of this workshop, it would be “diverse”. Even if we are small in numbers, but we represent the different part of the world, namely the Europe, South East Asia, Middle East Asia, South America, Africa and even countries that don’t belong to any continent- they just call themselves peoples from the Pacific. However, we clicked almost immediately and I guess it was due to the fact that women all over the world share the common interest and that is SHOPPING! On our second night here, the 7 of us got together and decided to explore Taipei city on our own. And God it was not easy at all because not many people here speak English. So just imagine a bunch of people, so frantic with our maps, terkial-kial with the Taiwan Dollars, braving the peak hour crowd to get into the MRT. However, we managed to get to the Shilin Night Market with the help of a few good Samaritans who had been very helpful despite the language barrier. Shil

I’m writing this entry from Taipei and it has been 8 days now since I left KL. And only God knows how I miss home and right now I’m really craving for meat!! You see, I’m here for a workshop and the organizer have to cater for 20 participants from 16 different countries. So with such diversity of nationalities and all, I just opt for vegetarian food, to avoid any hassle for the organizer. Furthermore, I don’t want the others to think that it is difficult to be a Muslim. So I have veggies for lunch and dinner and I guess I’ve tasted all kind of veggies that Taiwan has. And while the veggies are tasty, sweet and fresh-mind you that Taiwan has the freshest agriculture products and of very excellent quality, but still it can’t replace the juicy- berlemak taste of meat. And as I’m writing this, I’m really craving for a Big Mac and nasi lemak rendang ayam…. And here’s what I have had for my meals so far………………… Korean Style Ve

What we did at Langkawi……… I'm so lucky to have Raject as my travel buddy because she's so sporting walaupun imej memang sivik. We didn't have any proper arrangement on what to do, where to visit, what to eat etc. Temanya -gamble aje! It's more fun that way I guess as we were not pressure in completing certain visiting routes whatsoever. Holiday should be like that, kan? Sesuka hati aje! Inilah gambar-gambar suka hati kami juga.... Bab makan paling best as both of us enjoy good food and tak cerewet. The only different is Raject ni no matter how much she eats, she'll maintain the XS size, while I'm just the opposite! Unfair tau ! On our second night at Langkawi we went to eat seafood-lots of it that I suspected that we had created quite a confusion among the diners and the cook as well. Yelah, makanan atas meja macam untuk 5 orang! Lebih mengharukan coz we managed to eat all of them - sampai mabuk seafood! Our trip there was a combination of a 'good tourist

Guess where these photos were taken from? LANGKAWI! I just got back from a short vacation there and I’m still thrilled about the whole trip. Why? First, is due to the fact that my work so far have brought me to a few countries including the remote areas in Malaysia, but prior to this vacation, I never set my foot in Langkawi – not even for courses/teambuilding etc. Whenever there was an opportunity arisen, I usually been shoved away somewhere else for that ‘all important job’. Secondly, I had always wanted to go for a holiday on my own. I was not expecting some luxurious or action-packed holiday, but what I really want is a golden gateway somewhere- where I can be take a break from all the work/life routines and be careless and carefree even for a short while. My idea of a perfect vacation - loitering at the beach But me, being me, I just don’t like planning ahead for everything, which resulted me got tangled in other commitments – I had time

This picture was taken from my office window at about 6 p.m. It was nice to see something as beautiful as this despite all the chaos here in the office. SubahanAllah... It reminded me of the song from Sudirman "Pelangi Petang" . Lagu yang feeling untuk petang yang feeling juga....

----------Update 13 October 2008---------- Still tensed..in addition to the readily available stress, I got A call on Sunday (we are on call, 24-7 mind you!) and even though what happened was merely a case of miscommunication, it was enough to make me unable to sleep that night. To make things worse, the 'situation' continued this morning. It was brought up by a different person. I t was not entirely my fault, but still I feel t he burden of guilt. To think about it, who am I to tanggung semua tu? As that person that I had hurt on Friday tu , still haven't got the answer whether my apology is accepted or not. Dah tanya dah, but no answer. One more thing that made me feel guilty.. --------------------------------------------------------------------- Baru separuh hari at work, but I’m already feeling stress out / overwhelm / whatever you call it. I’m soo down and tensed that I have reached a point where I can’t do anything at all despite the fact that I got piles of work

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri Mohon Ampun Zahir dan Batin!

I have a confession to make – even at this age; I still get excited whenever I received kad raya. Actually makin lama makin excited because now it is quite hard to get this kind of greeting anymore, even during birthday. So my colleagues at work have to bear with me every time I exclaim in joy upon receiving one. After reading it, dengan poyo nyer I will stick the card on my partition. And this is how my ‘wall of fame’ <----- sangatlah perasan statement nie -------> ini looks like on the 25rd day of Ramadhan... Takler banyak pun kad tu, apatah lagi nak dibandingkan dengan kengkawan lain (yang sangat famous macam Famous Amos tu . Lagipun, most of the cards were from our business associates aje , which were very formal - but I still got the nice feeling all over me. Talk about kad raya my bestie HA had done the nicest thing - she sent me a card all the way from Japan. And that's not all, as she couldn't find any Kad Raya there, what she did was sending me a blank

Here’s a sneak peak of my day at work…. We’re so flexible that we might be gymnasts………. We are so into team work……. seiring dan sejalan We work so hard until we tire ourselves out….. And this is how we have our ‘professional’ discussion….. When the going gets tough, this is how we beat the stress… When all ends well, some get overjoyed… But some do it in a more poise manner…… All in all, we’re like one big happy family! Disclaimer: These pictures are for illustration purpose only. The actual day at work is lots more busier, tensed, full of drama, plus all the paperwork, project proposals, maklumbalas to be prepared, and might not be suitable for public viewing! <-----just kidding folks!

I blame it all on the gloomy weather and a plan that was cancelled at the eleventh hour. As the result, I ended with this psychedelic-colored blouse and a matching pair of high heels. And the blouse got this sort of balloon-y sleeves, very retro! Didn’t really quite sure what was I thinking at that time and on second thought these attire might be over for the office-but guess what, I already wore it to the office and it sure had brought some colors to my otherwise gloomy day at work!

What’s the difference between MERDEKA DAY and NEW YEAR? Public holiday – checked, free concert- checked, fireworks – checked. So what is actually the different between the day that is shared/celebrated with the whole planet with this very special day of our- Malaysians’ own? Yes, I do agree that we shouldn’t limit the spirit of the celebration for just one day, and the love for our country shouldn’t be counted only on how big the celebration that we have. But as we already mark this date 31st of August as the birthday of Malaysia, why don’t we celebrate it the more special way? I’m all for the Merdeka Parade, but I seriously think that “Ambang Merdeka” was just lack of originality. I would suggest that we take the word “Ambang” literally by having ‘meaningful’ programmes/activities in remembrance of the sacrifices, hardship, and everything that our forefathers had gone through in getting the independence for our beloved country. Yes, we all learn our history back in school, but sho

If we happened to be the cast of Friends, (our so-called group consisted of 6 persons- 3 guys and 3 girls), Lin would definitely be our Monica – because she always has her own ways in doing things, and how she wants it to be. I still remember how we always tease her whenever we go out for drinks. After we got our order, Lin would take a sip and more often than not, she will call back the waiter/waitress and asked him/her to ‘modify’ the drink- the way its taste should be. Tau jelah sometimes tempat makan nie sengal sket bab buat air nie, cair sangat, pekat sangat etc . For those who don’t know her you might say that she’s fussy. Well, that’s not true, because she endured the many tasks during our *PA time without being whiny and clingy at all. And that include underwent the rigorous army and bomba training, getting our hands and feet dirty and living in the hygienically-challenged situation during the outdoor modules. So I guess it proves that Lin is not fussy, it’s just that she alwa

Word of caution: This is a very me-me entry. So please forgive the sense of selfishness through out the entry =) I’m a person with principle. But don’t get me wrong- I’m not implying here that I have strong principle nor what I believe is entirely true-but I do believe in what I think is right/appropriate and hold on to that. However of late I find that sometimes I stick to my principle too strongly that it has made me a rather egoistic person a.k.a. stubborn. And oh yes, I think I got quite a strong instinct too that makes me think that I’m always right (which is of course not true!). So just imagine the consequences having both traits – a super egoistic me. I’m critical especially when it comes to work- perhaps too much that some people might find me intimidating. (No prize of guessing why I’m still single!!). If I don’t agree with something, I feel very uneasy if I don’t speak back. But this only applies for subjects/things that I feel strongly about (thank God!). If I don’t regar

I came across an article on the Internet yesterday about this trick to save money - by just collecting (and not spending of course!) all the $5 bills that we get. The good news is that this method has been proven to be a success – it is reported that a woman that practices this has managed to accumulate $12,000 within 3 years! Well, perhaps it’s not so much of money (for some people that is, but not for me!) but it’s better than nothing at all, right? When I came to think about it, RM5 or any smaller notes for that matter is not so much of value especially, nOWadays. And sometimes too much of the small notes is quite a nuisance to the wallet-that been overstuffed with lots of other things than money-credit card, loyalty card, membership card and what not! What’s more is that most people usually don’t think much of spending the small notes. I would easily spend a few ringgits on sweets, chocolates and all those sweet-sugary things that only manage to make my wallet lighter, but defini

Let's take a break from the chaotic-stressful world outside and share a laugh with me.. the credit goes to Dayah. Questions to ask ourselves … Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are flat? Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? Are there specially reserved parking spaces for 'normal' people at the Paralympic? Did you ever stop and wonder...... Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer? Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their bum when they ask where the bathroom is? If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from? Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster? Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune? Now stop singing and read on....... Who was the f

I guess everybody love watching investigation series. From series like NYPD Blue, sampailah Gerak Khas or even Roda-roda Kota Raya (featuring A.Galak a.k.a. Abg Misai yg sangat famous before Datuk K-Siti came into picture) all have their own followers. While CSI is my favorite among them all, I also love watching Law & Order as it is more realistic than the former yang kadang-kadang sangat poyo because the characters seem to know everything-sort like all the data in the chemical text books have been installed in their heads, so that they can blurt out the complex scientific info effortlessly, without hardly having to think even for one nano second. Menyampah jugak, tapi tengok juga citer tu! Well, the reason I’m telling you guys about this is to relate it with my recent experience on the law and order. I couldn’t reveal the details, but I can say that it includes me trying to make sense of the judiciary system through a very hands on approach. This was in conjunction with my n

This is my much ‘tenang’ version (which is today): I just love this song: not so much because of the lyrics but the title really suit today’s entry. It’s no secret that I’m hopeless in the communication department. I found it’s hard to say what’s inside my head and heart when it comes to personal matters -those things besides work. If it is professional, I don’t have any problem at all. So most of the time, perhaps all the time, I’ll just keep quiet whenever I was hurt by others words, action etc. Call me weak, low self esteem what-ever, but I would try really hard to avoid any kind of conflict. Perhaps I was too afraid to think of what the consequences would be if I just speak out. Perhaps I am more into making assumptions.. This is my actual-real time version (yesterday): When will I ever learn that what I think or feel is not IMPORTANT. Perhaps when I finally came to this realization, I would be able to protect my feeling from being crushed up what so ever. I have been in this si

Shouldn’t we be happy upon hearing friends getting hitch, getting babies, got promoted, or anything great for that matter? However, I’ve learned (the hard way) that a good news for you doesn’t mean that it is something good for other people to hear as well. So starting from now, I resolved to continue celebrating other people good news, but I’ll be mindful to share mine with others. However, I trust myself to share this little thing that I recently got with you guys here.. =) BTW, I've uploaded some of other photos at my Fotopages.

I just love ciku. It’s such an exquisite and yet humble fruit. The outside of the fruit is hard, but the isi is just soft and sweet thus not much chewing is required, and if it’s really ripe, we can just slurp it..lovely! Besides the taste, I just love the fruit because every time I eat it, it brings back a special memory that I still vividly remember even though it had happened about 10 years ago. And this is my “Ciku Story” … Venue : Kuala Lumpur General Hospital Time : After 10 p.m. You know how creepy hospitals could be at night. For those who were sick, that was the time to get the much needed rest after being poked and stubbed with various needles, medications and what not for the whole day. However, for the caretaker, that was the most dreaded time of the day - the sudden ‘lifeless’ of the building at night could really make you worry sick about the sick. I had been here for about two months now. There was nothing much that I could do then besides walking back and forth from

Undeniably, D.I.S.C.R.I.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N. is the root of many problems in this world. I guess the reason that discrimination exists is because human tend to have this holier than thou attitude that resulted in other people being treated unjustly. Whilst one can comfortably claim that he/she is not guilty as charge, let’s not forget about generalization which I believe is a fraction of/and thus can lead to discrimination too. Here let me put the simplest example of generalization - when we see the enforcement officers making their rounds, some would say “ Nak cari duit kopi lah tu ,” Or when a young woman decided to marry a very much older chap, one might think that she's after that man's wealth. T he least harmful form of generalization would be when we assume that product with better packaging is of a better quality too. However, we should never generalize human being- we should never assume that everybody is the same. People should be treated as an individual without any pre

I bought my first real jewellery last Sunday. It wasn’t really expensive, but the fact that I got it using my own money, the satisfaction is priceless!! Just like in the bank ad. Even if I love accessorizing, I’m not really a fan of this real jewellery thing as I think it portrays the image of a much 'mature' woman, especially those thick golden bracelet, necklace dan yang seumpama dengannya . Another factor that I don’t really fancy those as much is due to my clumsy nature (or I would call it a gold curse). I’m prone of losing the real jewellery, so far I’d lost a gold anklet, ring, earring and only God know how many times I’d been panicking over the misplaced stuff. It was not stolen, I just lost it. So this resulted in my hands being ‘bare’ and my Mom always had to ask me to wear some of hers for weddings, so that err… actually why do women are sort of expected to wear their finest jewelllery during wedding? It’s somewhat an unwritten rule, which I suspected not for a good

I borrowed this entry's title from one of Judy Blume's book "Here's to You, Rachel". I read the book when I was in secondary school, after all this years, I wonder how I can still remember this one line from the book. Yeah, our minds are great. Sometimes I even think it is capable to out-done us. Just like today..of all the things, what came into my mind today was something that had happened exactly two years ago. A nd as I'm writing this entry, it is actually almost at the exact time... I used to be optimistic, but I'm not anymore after 29 May 2006. Yes, I’ve moved on, I’ve met new people, slowly but surely I've been coping quite well with life after that. But now it seems that there's a little box deep inside my mind that still been keeping this.. I just don't really realize that it is still there after all this time. Perhaps this is because there was something that I meant to say that time, but I didn't..if only I could pour my heart ou

Antara nikmat dunia Malaysia yang tak pernah aku rasai is nikmat balik kampung especially during Hari Raya. Even if my Mom and Dad hailed from the South, my grandparents (from both sides pulak tu ) had resided in Kuala Lumpur later on in their lives, which resulted in me/us being kampung-less. So the closest thing to kemeriahan Hari Raya that I could get is by watching all those video clip Raya that typically contain images of children bermain bunga api di laman rumah yang sangat meriah dengan pelita dan lampu kelap-kelip, anak dara tengah menggantung langsir, anak bujang kacau dodol, mak dan nenek memasak kat pangkin . Watching all this always put me in self pity “Meriahnya Raya diaorang…” So lagu Sudirman “Balik Kampung” tu sangatlah tak relevannya with my Raya. Sedihya…sob..sob..sob. Perhaps (if I ever) get married, I’ll get to experience that too…hehehe. But luckily I still got the opportunity to merasai kehidupan di kampung di umur2 begini even if not during Raya pun . Antaran

I was feeling very bored and too lazy even to pick up a pen. So I ended up doing lots of quizzes, even yang mengarut tu, but this one is rather interesting, so try out to figure out what's yours here: http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/ What Nadeema Means You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get al

I had been in a very terrible state of mind (body and soul too, perhaps?) for the past few weeks – I’d been very temperamental, and when I didn’t mumble under my breath you’d found me bending the ears of those around me- groaning and moaning about what else – work related stuff. I guess everybody has something to say about their work. Overwork, not enough work ( nak complain juga ke ?), problems with bosses, colleagues, clients, problems getting to work (traffic jam, inefficient public transportations service), problems getting off from work (traffic jams-again!) and the list will go down until the very tiny-miny issues. But believe it or not, there are people out there whose their ultimate work problem is in finding what is the problem with their work. Dear readers, please don’t try to figure out what that means, otherwise you’d be caught with confusion just like me (and the rest of the gang)! But in short it means - these people don't have any serious problem at all with thei

" I pray to Allah to grant the wishes of those people yang ada perasaan irihati, jealous what so ever, so that they'll stop having such negative feelings and stop the negative vibes from spreading as well. AMIN!"

Tension betul dengan sikap manusia yang kurang consideration nih.. Semuanya nak cepat without considering that I don’t serve him/her solely. Hey wait! When I came to think about it, actually I’m answerable to my immediate boss only (who is very considerate by the way). No to them, yang entah siapa-siapa entah nie (and mostly inconsiderate!). These people, when they need some input, data what-so-ever, all they need to do is to pick up the phone and ask to get this and that from me (sometimes they don’t even know what they want - for God’s sake, please do a little bit of research or ask around!). And they will never fail to end the conversation with “Saya nak ni cepat/segera ye!” Yeah, like I don’t have anything else to do, just wait by the phone to get orders from them!! I don’t think that this urge to get the info oh-so-badly just come out like that. Kalau sekali dua minta urgent sangat-sangat ok juga, but if it happens everytime, I started to think that this person either has ver

Iniler outfit masa pegi concert tue! continue... The second half of the show was Jamal’s. Being quite disappointed with the first part, I didn’t expect much from this. But Jamal prove me wrong. He took the stage confidently, sang all his hits songs and hit the high notes perfectly! Everything was perfectly right for him that night - nice outfit ( walaupun macam baju Michael Jackson zaman Beat-It dulu, lantaklah ), he seemed healthy and glowing (Bunga-bunga Cinta dengan Misha Omar kot?), and he even did some improvisations on some of the songs…best! Paling best in this session they dropped out the jejaka ballet tu! Jamal also sang a blues song, “Help Me Make It through The Night” which made us screamed “Yes! Yes!” Hehehe… He really sent the shivered down to our spine with “Kekasih Awal dan Akhir”, “Seniman Menangis” and many more. And yes, his version of “Gerhana Cinta Luka" (originally sang) by Saleem was superb! The guest artistes’ line up for that concert also was very int

My Mom and I had a great time at KL Convention Centre last Saturday, all thanks to my brother who had been very generous to buy us tickets to see Jamal Abdillah and Saleem’s concert . Who can say no to an opportunity to dress up and be entertained, right? So I got myself a wrap-around shirt from East India and a pair of shiny-black wedges (that I’d been eyeing for weeks) just for the occasion. Talk about finding all the excuses to shop! I’m all with you in this LIN! Peduli ler kalau orang kata hobby kita nie macam Imelda Marcos, kan? Even though I'm not a huge fan of those two guys, I have to admit that I’m a sucker for late 70’s to early 90’s songs- Jay Jay, Francesca, Sudirman, Alleycats, Sohaimi Meor Hassan, and many more. I love their songs because the singers had this deep penghayatan lagu and the lyrics memang mendalam especially those written by Habsah Hassan. More over, it was somewhat nostalgic to hear the songs that we grew up with (dah tua rupanya!) So that night, the m